We’re two weeks in and I’m not going to ask how you’re doing with your resolutions, I’m much more interested in how you’re doing with your wants.
I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting; thinking about goals and accomplishments and questioning whether I’m someone who achieves goals or not, and just as I was about to go another round with ‘that voice’ that tells me I don’t ever get sh*t done, something weird happened.
I thought about the 4 months I was a foster motherto an infant. The entire process, from the time I first realized I wanted to experience raising a child in some way, to the time she was transferred to another foster mother, took 4 years.
It was a 4-year process in which I had to decide on an agency, find childcare, take classes, be investigated, become certified, go through a change within the agency, take classes again, be re-investigated, re-certify, wait months until they had a suitable match, and finally got the call! I did it. I didn’t quit.
And I wouldn’t change a thing about how it happened or how long it took, because now I know I can truly do anything and have anything I want.
You see, the word GOAL seems so lofty, so grand, so beyond me that ‘that voice’ (I call her Nellie) tells me I can’t possibly do it.
But when I simply decide that I WANT something …
What do you really, really want?